It has been three years and I do still check up on you. Why? I don’t know.
I saw that you have gotten into a relationship with a foreigner again and I was happy for you. Truly happy. Although it hurt a little (a lot) to admit that I couldn’t make you happy - nor could I have made myself happy in that relationship. It has been interesting several years.
But I have found someone. And I have never experienced this joy before - meeting him was the best thing that has happened to me because I know that our love is the purest form of love that anyone can find. I didn’t know/can’t believe that someone is capable of giving so much love.
Now I get it - there was a plan all along. I had to endure such heartbreaks because I wouldn’t have appreciated the love I have right now.
I am sorry your love story didn’t work out. I don’t know what happened between the two of you but let me tell you that it takes a while for love to find us. You have to open your heart and hope that it coming soon.
I guess this is a goodbye letter. I kept looking to the past because I knew the mistakes I made and it was easy to imagine a scenario where I would have acted differently. It is time for me to say goodbye and not look back to you. I know you are not looking my way either. I guess I became so nostalgic that I have forgotten how everything was. I know my mind is good at painting the past the way it never was - beautifully. These memories I have - they are not real anymore because over the years my mind has tampered with them and adjusted to the way I want them to be.
It is time to let these memories go free and stop looking back.
I have the whole amazing future filled with ever-lasting love ahead of me.
Goodbye for good