why are you so far away? everything would be perfect if there were just this… if i was in love. in love with the one i’m with.
if it weren’t so hot and the environment wasn’t in such bad shape. if i had a car, with windows down and a slurpee. if i could find something to get excited about. or remove that urge. the urge to want more, the urge to fill it up with something else. i want to run away so much, i want to find something, i want to end something, start something. i feel like something has gone missing, something got shaken loose, something has been deleted. and i think it was something important. i think it was something that held it together.