Jerry, this is the part where it starts to hurt. I need so much for you to respond to me so I don’t feel like this is some cheap affair that doesn’t mean anything to you. But you won’t. So, usually I give up and stop reaching out, start to feel like I’m finally moving on while you ignore me for a few weeks, and then you’ll text me something short like ‘how are you’ and I’ll fall right back into old habits and everything repeats itself leaving me worse off each time.
This is not what I want for us. I want love that doesn’t have to hide. I want you to come home to me, not sneak off to see me. So, I’m doing what we both know I should-I’m going to block your number. After this, I won’t get your messages. I love you so fiercely and that makes this feel impossible to handle but I have to try because you aren’t showing me love in return and I can’t love you enough for both of us.
I’ll still hope, of course…That someday I’ll wake up to an email from you explains that things have changed and we can be together and the hopeless romantic in me will soar.